More RL Oversharing
Jul. 2nd, 2006 02:12 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
fenlingsOMG so the other day in my ichi-nensei class, they were all supposed to ask me questions. And they basically only know "Do you like?" and "Do you play?"
So they were all asking me, "Do you like basketball? Do you like yakiniku? Do you like golf?" etc. And then these two boys in front were conspiring, and one of them stood up and said, "Do you like okama? Do you like New-Half?" And the teacher made discouraging noises and gently steered us away to another topic, so that I didn't have to answer.
But I don't know. Of course if I were truthful, the answer would be yes. And I do feel kind of obligated to show my support, etc. But on the other hand, I felt really uncomfortable talking about it in class. I just don't think it's appropriate English class conversation, and I'm kind of annoyed at everyone, myself included, for automatically associating okama and New-Halfs with sex and sexual perversion. Because the reason I felt uncomfortable was that the topic dealt with sex. Like when one of my san-nensei boys asked me, "Which of the boys in this class is your type?" And usually when I'm asked those kinds of questions, I find a way to avoid answering, or I give a non-answer like, "I don't have a type." The same thing with when a girl asked me what "fuck" meant. I just said it was a bad word and she shouldn't say it. If it were *my* kid, or a kid I knew well asking me about these things, I would be fine with educating them about it. But I know that I wouldn't want my kid to go to school and learn about these kinds of sexual words from teachers without my consent. They might impart attitudes and prejudices that I don't agree with. But the thing is, I don't think okama and New Halfs should belong in that category of things-associated-with-sex that as a teacher I shouldn't talk about.
Okama and New-Halfs -- everyone defines their lifestyle by sex, when it's really just another lifestyle. And because everyone else does, I do too, and that pisses me off.
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Dude, I just realized the other day walking home that I was doing something that qualified as a strange thing. Does anyone else do this?
When I walk, I feel the variations in texture, height, and color in the surface upon which I'm walking. So, for instance, when I'm walking on a black and white tiled floor and I step half on a black tile with my right foot, the black tile hitting at the arch of my foot, I'll feel a tingling in the arch of my right foot for a long time. At least, until I do the same thing with my left foot, to even out the tingling. With cracks and bricks and stairs, it's the same. Nowadays I automatically modify my walk to hit cracks, etc. in the corresponding place on the opposite foot of the one that just stepped on a crack, etc. It's almost unconscious now, something my body does on its own. But I just realized, as I was lengthening my stride near my apartment to step on a crack with the ball of my left foot, that this is *weird*. But I can't remember a time when I *didn't* do it. I guess it started with the slate path outside the front step at home.
Is this different from the way other people walk? I don't know. ::IS CRAZY PERSON::
So they were all asking me, "Do you like basketball? Do you like yakiniku? Do you like golf?" etc. And then these two boys in front were conspiring, and one of them stood up and said, "Do you like okama? Do you like New-Half?" And the teacher made discouraging noises and gently steered us away to another topic, so that I didn't have to answer.
But I don't know. Of course if I were truthful, the answer would be yes. And I do feel kind of obligated to show my support, etc. But on the other hand, I felt really uncomfortable talking about it in class. I just don't think it's appropriate English class conversation, and I'm kind of annoyed at everyone, myself included, for automatically associating okama and New-Halfs with sex and sexual perversion. Because the reason I felt uncomfortable was that the topic dealt with sex. Like when one of my san-nensei boys asked me, "Which of the boys in this class is your type?" And usually when I'm asked those kinds of questions, I find a way to avoid answering, or I give a non-answer like, "I don't have a type." The same thing with when a girl asked me what "fuck" meant. I just said it was a bad word and she shouldn't say it. If it were *my* kid, or a kid I knew well asking me about these things, I would be fine with educating them about it. But I know that I wouldn't want my kid to go to school and learn about these kinds of sexual words from teachers without my consent. They might impart attitudes and prejudices that I don't agree with. But the thing is, I don't think okama and New Halfs should belong in that category of things-associated-with-sex that as a teacher I shouldn't talk about.
Okama and New-Halfs -- everyone defines their lifestyle by sex, when it's really just another lifestyle. And because everyone else does, I do too, and that pisses me off.
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Dude, I just realized the other day walking home that I was doing something that qualified as a strange thing. Does anyone else do this?
When I walk, I feel the variations in texture, height, and color in the surface upon which I'm walking. So, for instance, when I'm walking on a black and white tiled floor and I step half on a black tile with my right foot, the black tile hitting at the arch of my foot, I'll feel a tingling in the arch of my right foot for a long time. At least, until I do the same thing with my left foot, to even out the tingling. With cracks and bricks and stairs, it's the same. Nowadays I automatically modify my walk to hit cracks, etc. in the corresponding place on the opposite foot of the one that just stepped on a crack, etc. It's almost unconscious now, something my body does on its own. But I just realized, as I was lengthening my stride near my apartment to step on a crack with the ball of my left foot, that this is *weird*. But I can't remember a time when I *didn't* do it. I guess it started with the slate path outside the front step at home.
Is this different from the way other people walk? I don't know. ::IS CRAZY PERSON::
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Date: 2006-07-02 04:18 am (UTC)