Chocolate and Howling at the Moon

Today I had coffee, and I had M&Ms, and I thought of Ray Kowalski and put the two together.

It's been a while since I've had that "Ray Kowalski, I love you!" feeling. Yay!

I've been watching Gokusen season 1, and... I know I'm probably the only one, but I really want the story where Sawada grows up and marries Yankumi and takes over the business and uses his brilliance to become this young underworld king figure and gets waaaay more power than his father and maybe rubs his father's nose in that A LITTLE and lets Yankumi keep teaching and helps her students out when there's trouble and they have married!yakuza!sex.

...Yeah, just me, huh? (I think "Forbidden Love" corrupted me.)

I am STRUNG OUT on HanaDan. (後三日！） Even though this season isn't as good as the first one. I'm even considering reading the manga. Or at least putting it on my to-do list. (Though I don't know if I can handle 11 years worth of romantic misunderstandings.)

I was rewatching the last 4 eps of Kimi wa Petto (HAPPYSIGH) and I realized how much it spoiled me for porn. There is a LOT more physical and sexual contact there than in like Tatta Hitotsu no Koi and HanaDan (and Nobuta goes without saying). So maybe that's why I feel so dissatisfied with the new season of HanaDan (I keep wanting them to jump each other) and also the ending of Tatta Hitotsu. (Seriously. WTF. Get married already. Or even, you know, TOUCH EACH OTHER.)

I think Hanazawa Rui is one of the prettiest men I have ever seen. And he looks soooo mangappoi. Like I haven't read it, but every time the camera lands on him, his costume and posture and way of moving just make me picture a manga panel. (In a hot way! Like wow, there are people that manga-pretty in real life too!) But I hear in the newest HD manga Shizuka gets married to a French dude, and Rui is okay with that, but romantically alone now and that is SAD because I love how he just LOVES everyone and I want him to be happy. Hmm, his role is kind of like Sawada's in Gokusen 1. Just standing back and loving everyone. Except he does it more intensely. And sexier!

Oh, and jekesta would like how the recurring symbol of Rui and Domyouji's big gay friendship is them tossing each other apples and then eating them at each other. They are so silly.

Dude, there are some huge drum noises outside. I wonder what's going on. I had a half day today and I spent all of it watching Gokusen. Hee.

My angry!RayK vid has been almost finished for like a month now. But I'm waiting until I'm not absolutely convinced that it is the worst piece of crap I've ever seen before I finish it and ask for a beta.

Wow. This weekend.

I had so much fun.

First of all the Due South chat was *awesome* and I'm so glad I didn't miss it in another attack of home repair.

I started chatting at about 3 PM Saturday, around when it started, and we watched things and it was yay until like 6 PM when I had to *leave* to go to a party WOE.

But the party, to say goodbye to departing JETS, was OMG hilariously fun. I'm going to miss so many of these people next year. SAD.

So then I came *back* around midnight and immediately got on chat again. And I stayed on until 5 AM. Can you blame me???

I went to sleep then, and slept for 5 hours until 10 AM, the first HCL screening, and then there was the commentary screening, and then there was S&A and COTW commentary and omg FUN FUN FUN.

So Sunday I stayed on chat for 14 hours from 10 AM to midnight. And I was SO GOOD - I exited AIM at midnight. And I was going to go to bed. Really. But see, all weekend I had been downloading awesome things that I was unable to watch because of chatting and watching other awesome things. (Though I did watch a good Superman cam Saturday morning. But I found the movie too Jesus-y and obvious. And the whole Christ-like figure Superman didn't work for me because he didn't feel like a real person in this movie, just a collection of signifiers blatantly telegraphed by the filmmakers, so I didn't feel for him as much as, say, Spiderman. And of course the writers ruined Lex.)

But ANYWAY, the Gay Mormon had downloaded in the meantime, and I just could not resist his siren call. So from midnight to 2 AM or so I watched it. And omg you guys. It's like someone made a movie just for me. It's like they sat down and were like, "Hm, how many of Fenlings's kinks can we hammer?" I mean they didn't get the crossdressing or make-up kink, and the love confession was poorly acted, but everything else was SO MUCH LOVE YAY.

I don't want to spoil you, so I'll just show this ( one cap. )

Hee, I'm giving one of my teachers all these gay movies (+MWB, just because I have no self-control), and this is SO going to be one of them.

So even though I think I had a grand total of 9 hours sleep on Saturday and Sunday night combined, it was completely worth it. I just had to keep reminding myself of that today.

When Fraser steals the sandwich in BDtH to make the putty sandwich, whose sandwich was it, Sven's or Turnbull's?

I just rewatched it, and it looks like Sven's, but for some reason I have it in my head that it was Turnbull's.

Does anyone know??

Also which episode was it that Fraser made the crazy sign to someone else about Turnbull? I just saw it and now I can't remember. ::scowls at episodes::

ETA: Crazy-sign was "Mountie Sings the Blues"! Yay!

Bill Nye! On Numb3rs!

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I think my brain exploded from the strain of combining two things I love that so obviously do not belong together. I was flailing the minute I saw his name in the credits.

It was so cute to see Bill Nye try SO HARD to like, ACT or something. They even tried to give him a character name and then he was all "CALL ME BILL" ::WINKWINK::

ME: OMG ::dies::

But he just slipped into his usual patter, and you could tell that he tried to tone it down? Act professional? But he still sounded like he was explaining things to four-year-olds. God, I love him, but he shouldn't try to be anything other than himself.


Also, Charlie: Cut your hair! No really. Go back to first season hair, I'm begging you.

Sometimes your hair doesn't look bad - sometimes it even looks *good*. But then there are those times where it looks like you're wearing a set of greasy plastic snakes on your head. And first season hair *always* looked good. So please. For our sakes.



Okay. I have this recurring dream of the Big Gay Due South Movie.

Where like Fraser and RayK have to team up together again on another case (after, as in an interview PG said he thought would happen, Ray had wandered back to Chicago after the quest).

Andthentheyhavesex.

Lots of angsty fucking. And kissing up against walls. Slow, at first tentative kissing, with emotionally charged silences. And flashbacks to the quest and the gradually-revealed big gay relationship crises that drove Ray back to Chicago.

So, in my head, it's like in My Beautiful Laundrette, where the reason for their angst and obvious discomfort being partnered with each other again is not revealed until like halfway through the movie with a flashback to the questsex or sudden kissing after someone shoots at them or something.

And obviously Fraser starts in the North, pretty happy in a small town posting, part of the community, and then the case goes to Chicago (it can be some kind of Canadian political thriller case, okay Paul?), and then both he and RayK follow it back to Canada.

Andthentheygetmarried.

Well at least that's implied by the fact that RayK just stays in Canada with Fraser. That kind of married, not like...ceremony and justice of the peace married. (That's left for the post-movie fanfic.)

Meanwhile I'm thinking RayV and Stella are either away in FLA or RayV is around Chicago and he and Fraser get to visit, get closure, cry manly tears about Victoria, etc. (Though hey, apparently group sex is legal in Canada now so you never know, maybe the foursome will...okay that kinda squicks even me.) But hmm I guess he could be RayK's partner as well, though I don't know how well that would work (shut up, Ray/Ray fics).

It's a very nice fantasy? But I know it will sadly never come to pass. I mean, CKR's played a gay character, and there was the blooper fake buttsex.

And in an alternate dimension where PG isn't Mr. Canada, poster boy, and Due South isn't the most popular Canadian TV show ever, it might could happen.

But frankly, I'm not sure I *want* a Due South movie in reality, because it *wouldn't* be the big gay movie I want it to be, and it would introduce new canon to Joss every lovely post-cotw fic that has become *my* canon.

So I'll just be content with the movie in my head.



In other news, I've been plowing through the Sentinel (THANK YOU FATHER, YOU ARE THE BESTEST MOST FAVORITEST PARENTAL UNIT UNTIL I GET MOM'S JUMP STREET) at an alarming rate.

Conclusion: SO MARRIED, yes. Like I just watched the ep with that black Amnesty International chick, and she had more presence than anyone in the episode. I really liked her, and I could totally ship her and Blair...in an alternate world where Jim is dead or never existed. Because as long as Jim and Blair are alive, they have to be together. I mean, *no one* could watch this show and think that they could live happily ever after separately.

Also, they are PRETTY and GAY. Blair's eyes sometimes, are actually, um...violet. (Oh, the bad Duo fic flashbacks - save me!) GOD I'm so ashamed, but I can't resist the Garett love! PRETTY. (Jesus, now I really can't stop comparing J/B to bad 1x2 fics...I feel so dirty.)

It's really obvious when they're ad libbing and it's always just the cutest, funniest thing ever. ::snugs::

But most of the episodes' plots seem annoying and...unimportant. Who cares about the stiff of the week - I want more character and relationship development.

And then even when there is an affecting plot that tells us something about the characters (like the plot of every other episode where OMG BLAIR IS A KIDNAPPED ANTHROPOLOGIST IN DISTRESS AND JIM HAS TO RESCUE HIM YAY) the episode seems oddly unfinished. Like the elevator episode...there was no emotional reunion between Jim and Blair after that harrowing experience where Blair thought he was going to die, and Jim thought Blair *had* died. There were just some wisecracks and OMG the scripted wisecracks on this show are SO LAME GAG SPIT. I feel really sorry for the actors trying to make them funny because...they're just really - not.

I guess every episode seems unfinished because I'm always waiting for them to kiss or hug or something. They're right on the verge ALL THE TIME (hello bloopers). And it's kind of exhausting to constantly anticipate, constantly be about to see it...and then have them make some lame wisecrack or do some boring detective work or chase scene.

It also pisses me off how little camera focus Blair seems to get. He's always sharing the frame with someone or in the background of a shot. In my mind, this should be The Blair Show, with Jim and Simon. Instead, they waste time on all these one-episode characters and blah. Who cares.

I just watched the ep with Lilah! Wow, Lilah gets to kiss Fraser, have sex with Jim, and *fuck* Wesley (up). We should be taking notes, because this actress obviously knows what she's doing.

I love House. Don't get me wrong. But it kind of pisses me off how he makes such a big deal out of his leg. Or maybe how the writers make such a big deal about his leg.

I mean look at Joe from Highlander. Here's a man who's actually missing *both* legs, and he barely even acknowledges it. I mean, the writers show us the story of how he lost them and how it affected his life. And we see him with his cane and obvious prostheses all the time. But neither Joe nor the writers ever make a big deal out of it. Life goes on. (Even dystopia!Joe's problems seem to center more around his booze and disillusionment than his wheelchair.) Joe still keeps up with Mac fine, sometimes to Mac's chagrin (witness the Scotland trip).

It's just. Granted, House is an expert on medicine. But Joe is an expert on *immortals*. Now tell me who has more of a reason to feel irrationally inadequate?

(But maybe there's a time factor as well. House only got his injury a few years ago, and Joe's legs have been gone at least 20 years.)

I guess what I'm trying to say is that while Joe may be physically even more crippled than House, I don't feel that he's nearly as *emotionally* crippled. And maybe both House and the writers are trying to externalize House's emotional disability by making such a big deal out of his leg.

Sometimes though, I just want to tell House to quit being bitchy and get over it. ::channels inner Stacy::

Go open a bar somewhere with Wilson. ::smiles::

( lj paranoia )

( This is your brain on 中学校 )

( Somehow that led to the HP movie. I don't know. )

( To Sentinel or not to Sentinel, with a side of vidblockery )

( In which I fangirl Warren Peace )


( In which I attempt to explain how Dumbledore/Dobby and Hermione/Godric can coexist without comment. )




OMG Sulu is gay. I did not think it was possible for my love for George Takei to grow any greater.



( In which I present my random Numb3rs 205 reactions )




Robin of Sherwood is so pretty that capping it wouldn't do it justice. It's pretty in context and in motion and with the Clannad and ::waves hand at screen:: go watch it!



Random actorspotting: Joan of Arc in Forever Knight is the bank robber chick from Due South Free Willie and Vault. And Weir from SGA is the vampire who went into the sun and left behind that doll.



( In which I ask: Is the Bondage Mountie James Allodi? )

Fallen

Fandom: Due South
RayK-centric, F/K

Warnings: Rated C for Callum. Ultimately slashy, especially in the Goldilocks and the Three Mounties part, but also het warning for Stella and angst warning for...well the whole vid, but the Beth Botrelle part in particular.



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