New Due South Vid

[fenlings]

Fallen

Fandom: Due South
RayK-centric, F/K

Warnings: Rated C for Callum. Ultimately slashy, especially in the Goldilocks and the Three Mounties part, but also het warning for Stella and angst warning for...well the whole vid, but the Beth Botrelle part in particular.

Download here: http://www.mediafire.com/?l2rpmivq1r629jl
38mb, 3:46, mpeg format


So I finally made another vid!

::hears crickets chirping::

Well, I know it *has* been a while since my last one. I did this one in about a week as well on my shiny new laptop. This vid also ate my brain. It is a RayK angst vid, supplanting the Dief angst vid in my vid-making lineup. (Thank God. I mean even I was having trouble taking that idea seriously.)

I am happier technically with this vid than the last one, but I am not as happy with the narrative structure, or lack thereof. I tried to tell a lot of stories in this vid, and I'm not so sure that what came out couldn't be interpreted in many other ways than the one I was going for. Anyway, I was going for (in the Fraser section), Ray gaining back his power by evening the score with the second punch and then going off on the honeymoon with Fraser happy because he's treated as an equal and isn't fucking up so much anymore. But really any interpretation you want to make is also valid. That's why vids (and fandom in general, and, you know, literary theory) are so interesting to me.


Lyrics:

Artist: Sarah McLachlan
Song: Fallen

Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I've messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

We all begin with good intent
When love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held so dear.

I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I've messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

Heaven bent to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
One slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I've messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

I've messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

Comments

[abelladonna.livejournal.com]

Okay, I'm always nervous when someone vids to one of my fav songs... but this ROCKED! I liked the symmetry of it, Ray with what he would consider his biggest failures in life- Stella, Beth Botrelle, and almost losing Fraser. It's angsty and sad and warm and with a happily every after! It's... it's... wonderful. Really.

My fav parts:
-"a long awaited answer" to RayK's and Fraser's first meeting.
-"the cost was so much more than I could bear" line as the intro to the Stella part. Ray watching them in mirror was perfect with that line.
-"don't come around here and tell me I told you so", to Fraser knocking on the door and interrupting Ray and Stella- that was PERFECT.
-"We all begin with good intent", laid over the images of WeeRay and WeeStella in the bank was wonderful. it really brought home how much of a beginning to the RayK we all know and love that that one day was. Without that bank, Ray wouldn't be the man that we all love so much.
-"the past can be undone" to Ray and Stella kissing. I admit to having a weakness for RayK/Stella, a SERIOUS weakness, and that hit me right in the chest!
-"turn their heads, embarrased", I liked how this lead us from Beth Botrelle right into Ray's relationship with Fraser. Lovely.
-And then they get to RIDE OFF INTO THE SUNSET TOGETHER!

OMG, this is SO good. Reccing it in my LJ RIGHT NOW!

::debates between using her angsty RayK icon or her Stella/RayK one::

[fenlings]

OMG detailed feedback! ::glomps::

Thanks for citing specific parts and how they affected you. It really helps me get a line on whether people get from the vid what I meant them to get.
And it looks like you did.
So yay!

Thanks so much!

[abelladonna.livejournal.com]

Ummm... OMG, sorry. My computer went all crazy and posted that comment like 8 times. I suck.

[estrella30.livejournal.com]

my god, this is WONDERFUL. I will promise to send real fb tomorrow after I've watched this a few thousand more times, but my god, one of the best vids I've seen. Beautiful.

wow. Thank you.

[fenlings]

YAY ESTRELLA LIKES ME!

haha, sorry. I totally stalk you and Brooklinegirl's ljs for both fandom news and teh funny.

Thanks a bunch!

[estrella30.livejournal.com]

also, you should totally link to this on ds_noticeboard so everyone can see it!

[em16.livejournal.com]

*via ds_noticeboard*

Oh oh OH! This was so beautiful. My eyes were all watery by the end. I love the scenes you chose and the edits, which wove so perfectly with the lyrics, particularly the quick cuts with Ray's dad and Stella. It gives the vid a wonderful narrative. And I also love a good dose of Ray angst ;) Again, BEAUTIFUL!

[fenlings]

Thank you! I was kind of worried that I didn't have any narrative other than. "....and then Ray fucks up. Again. Until he is saved by the Obvious Gay Love." And I *didn't* want the vid to be about Fraser saving Ray, but about Ray finding inner peace.
Oh well, it looks like any narrative fuzziness there may or may not have been didn't hinder your enjoyment of it any.

Glad you found it worthwhile and thanks for your comments!

[melissaukgirl.livejournal.com]

Sent here by estrella30 and boy, did she know what she was talking about.

That was a fantastic vid. It had Callum ::sigh:: and all the drama and highs and lows of the series.

Thanks for sharing.

[fenlings]

Thank you for posting! I'm always really insecure when I put anything out there. I want to grab it back and make last minute changes or just think that it's not good enough for anyone to want to see.
So instant praise like this totally makes my day!
#^_^# <<- ::glows::

[picara.livejournal.com]

That was fantastic. And I thought the narrative you were going for came through, as well. I would leave more detailed feedback, but it's late. Suffice to say, it was wonderful!

[fenlings]

Thanks for your reassurance regarding the narrative. I'm glad you liked it! *^_^*

[stormymouse.livejournal.com]

OMG! ::blinks away a tear:: you made me cry. no worries, in a good way! this is wonderful!

[fenlings]

Thanks! I'm glad I made you cry in a good way. There are definitely vids that have done that to me. ^^

[bonspiel.livejournal.com]

This is amazingly great. I was nervous about the song choice, since although McLachlan's perfectly appropriate for the fandom, her songs are often used as emotional anvils in bad vids at large. This is not one, though. You have really created an emotional arc, and chosen the scenes to create a mood of hurt but ultimately hope. My favorite is the punching bag scene interspersed with the other footage near the middle.

[fenlings]

"Amazingly great"! Wow, thanks, haha.

I was a bit worried over the Giant Fandom Cliche of using Sarah McLachlan, but this vid ambushed my brain so much that I decided not to worry about it anymore.

Emotional Arc! Yay! I'm glad the punching bag sequence worked and was not confusing. Angst with a happy ending is my favorite kind of story, so I guess that translated to this vid's story. I couldn't just leave poor Ray all hurt and alone. ^_-

[2am-optimism.livejournal.com]

Here via estrella30 as well. That was just brilliant! I love the flow of the images you've used, and how amazingly well you've matched the beat of the action to that of the song. I rarely freak over vids, but that was wonderful, thanks :)

[fenlings]

Thanks!
The timing and flow were big concerns for me, so I'm glad you liked it. ^_^

[mlyn.livejournal.com]

Nice work. I think it's a pretty song and you did a good job of putting the clips together, but I also thought that in places the action and motion of the clips were too fast for the music. It's tough, because the song changes pace a lot, but Ray K is an active and frenetic character all the time. Running and shooting and talking fast don't lend themselves well to a ballad. It's nice to still see dS vids, though, so thanks for working on it and posting it. I'm all over fannish participation!

[fenlings]

Yeah, I was afraid of that, especially right after he was crying and I cut to Franklin with the gun and Ray fighting with Huey and Dewey.
But slow motion can look really funny sometimes, and I really wanted it to stop eating my brain and finish it.
I do want to improve as a vidder, however, so thanks for your critique!

[transtempts.livejournal.com]

Gorgeous. Followed Estrella's rec over here, and wow. Lovely job. By chance, have you any other vids? Quite a beautiful piece of work.

[fenlings]

Thanks for your feedback!
I have one earlier vid, "Black Black Heart" which you can find by going two entries earlier in my lj.
I hope to make more once my life settles down a bit. ^_^

[otakucat2.livejournal.com]

I bet I'd love it even more if I watched more due south than what I have already with you. This was great, it really did blend with the song well. Hooray for your awesomeness!!

[fenlings]

YAY ::glomps::
I'm glad you liked it even as a nonfan.
Come back from Japan so I can huggle you, and R and i can meet your sekrit bf!

::is too lazy to actually reply to your entry at your lj::
I'm sorry your missing him. R and I are going to try skype, and I hope there's will be no evil firewalls. Haha but im sure his 1337ness will overcome them if there are. I tried to look at your pictures but am dumb and have no pw.

Yay for you meeting Charles and Priss. Are they having a great and t00by love reunion? And I have to vote for fuku as opposed to kimono just for the panchira factor.

::smooches::

[onlymesmerized.livejournal.com]

Hey WHERE ARE YOU?

I'm in the DC area, finally, again. I haven't even watched your vid 'cause I know it will be completely fabulous. OMG You just made my Friday. I feel like I pimped the song to you with the TS vid...did I?

[fenlings]

OMG HI YOU SO DID

I didn't know the link to the vidder's site or I would have given pimpage credit to you and the vidder. Could you give it to me? I don't think I'd ever really heard that song before watching that vid, which is amazing considering how much I like Sarah M. I had the RayK idea in the back of my mind, and then last week in the car I heard it again on the radio and then couldn't stop vidding!

So you get Total Pimpage Credit!

I'm in the DC area too, you h0r who is never on AIM. And I will still be here for about 2 weeks before I go to Japan OMG ::dies of unpreparedness::

And Darth Vader was unable to read my mind so I entered "fanvid" in his mental database.
::conquers the dark side::

[dubhartach.livejournal.com]

Gorgeous, loved it. Thank you.

[fenlings]

You're welcome and thanks for commenting!

[lilac-one.livejournal.com]

Followed estrella30 here, too, and I'm so glad I did. I'm all hurty, and possibly teary-eyed, but in a good way. The whole thing really worked for me, so rather than listing specific parts, I'll just say you packed quite an emotional punch. I felt it in my gut. Thank you and more please.

[fenlings]

Yay emotional punch! Those are the fics and vids I like the best, the ones that really affect me emotionally.
I plan to make more later, but more song ideas would be helpful as well, so if anyone has any, send 'em over.

[celli]

Wow, that was fantastic. I need to go rewatch it about six times.

[fenlings]

Thanks so much. ^___^
::<3 your angsty ray icon::

[(Anonymous)]

thanks so much. saw the vid and liked it very very much. personally, i thought the song very well suited to the action - the song wasn't so ballad-y that it interfered with action shots.
thanks again - tally

[fenlings]

Thanks bunches! I'm glad you liked the balance of action and repose--I was hoping the dissolves would help with that. ^_^

[jcase.livejournal.com]

I love this vid...particularly the middle stanza, where the dancing moves from partners to solo. Gave me shivers.

Lovely. Just lovely.

[fenlings]

Aw, yay. ::blushes::

[norabombay.livejournal.com]

Crack Van sent me here.

This is great. Thanks.

[fenlings]

Hee. You're welcome. ^_^

[omendreamer.livejournal.com]

That was beautiful (came here from crackvan).

[fenlings]

Thanks! It's good to be pimped. ^_^

[i-am-schizo.livejournal.com]

Oh whoa, a friend of mine gave me some dS vids on DVD lately (I've got a stupidly ancient comp, so no way can I d/l the stuff myself) and yours here was among them and I really really enjoyed it. As I'm pretty new to the dS fandom I still feel a bit like exploding from the inside what with all these crazy fangirl feelings and your vid definitely brought these out, the crazy fangirl feelings, like, I had to start bouncing and grinning rather stupidly. :o) Glad I found you on LJ (had a look at the members listed on the ckr_actorfic pofile page and discovered your name there) and can tell you how much I liked this vid!

Ciao, Schizo :o)

[fenlings]

Yay, feedback on old vids makes me happy. I am grinning rather stupidly at the monitor myself right now. ^o^

Hee you recced me on your lj even! I am totally laughing out loud at the "warning for minor het content." I love slash fandom.

[taelonmahal.livejournal.com]

Very nice vid. :)

[fenlings]

Thanks so much! I'm glad people are still finding and liking it after this while.

[woolly-socks.livejournal.com]

Hi.

OK, I know you posted this aaaages ago but I only just watched it now. It's lovely. Oh, the pretty RayK angst!

[fenlings]

Hee, thanks. Glad you liked!

[dessert-first.livejournal.com]

Wonderful! Really lovely. Oh, Ray.

[fenlings]

Yay, glad you liked!